After spending a great weekend with my close friends I realized something important: satisfaction in things and people other than the Lord has been increasingly evident in my life. There's a call in this world, Christian or otherwise, to be satisfied. And lately I see that my problem is that I live a life of wanting far too often to seek attention, be emotional, get noticed, and feel satisfied in things that ultimately cannot satisfy me. Of course I won't go into the personal specifics but I feel like for months now I have put my energy into my weaknesses rather than my strengths. Time for a change? I think yes. I want to be satisfied in what I have rather than what I don't.
"Why spend your money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy?"
A recent conversation with a friend got me thinking about commitment to the Lord as well. I haven't put everything I am into serving a God that demands that of me, and that's an easy thing to be guilty of; after all, I'm human. But this conversation I had left me with one lasting thought that I'm still carrying around: I want to be 100%.
I also wanted to thank Stargirl for commenting on my last post. She said, "Your life sounds beautiful." I never thought of how beautiful my life truly is until now. But I have the grace of my God, my friends & family that support me, and I am blessed to be able to go to college and experience things that have changed my life. I get caught up in what's not working with my life rather than what is consistently good. Thanks again for the comment, it made me think.