some of you will understand why this song explains what i've been feeling, some of you won't. but nonetheless, i'm going to post it because it's really good writing and i like this chick a lot. for those of you who get it, know that i'm doing okay now. but i wasn't always. it's a good reminder to accept life's changes and move on.
tonight was very difficult. a lot of family issues. my mom cried a lot. my sister doesn't get that she's being impossible for the rest of us to deal with. i am the support system because i have to be. it doesn't matter that i hate it or didn't ask for it. sometimes children have to be strong for their parents because that's the role they were born into.
i miss my best friend, and i know she misses me too.. even though she has a distraction. so close but so far away.
there have been people i don't necessarily want to help anymore but i should and i have to. the whole "put others above yourselves" statement from the bible keeps popping into my head. every day more facets of my selfishness come out.
i know everyone struggles, but at what point do your struggles stop becoming your everyday life? i guess you can't choose what happens to you, but you can choose how you deal. and that's what i'm figuring out piece by piece.