Sunday, February 15, 2009

8:30 pm.

There's a lot going on in life these days-- I'm just grateful for my free evenings & weekends. I need the recovery time haha. I've been concentrating on using what God gives me in the smartest way-- mostly financially. For example, I got my first paycheck and it was the exact amount of my car payment... so that's what I'm spending it on. The way God specifically provides is no coincidence.

Things have been happening around here but it's all just a testament to how important faith is and the role it plays. We wake up each day not knowing what is going to happen and it can either go really well or suck a lot-- but I think it really is what we make it and how we let God decide what's going to happen. I also think that's the issue with people who have no belief in God. They have to do all the work and figure everything out on their own. Honestly, I don't know how they do it. That would be such a huge burden to carry. I almost wish I hadn't believed in God my entire life just so I could understand what that's like and how much better it is with the Lord. I wish that a lot actually-- that I could have made a transition from total unbelief to complete faith. I think it would have made me realize how important God really is on a whole other level.

I've also been feeling like my days spent working in an office for eight hours are a waste. I could be out changing the world or something, I don't know. Instead I'm doing useless work with no greater purpose. However, my roommates are quick to remind me that I am in the office for a reason and establishing relationships with my coworkers is just as important as doing something outwardly meaningful. I think that's true.

Off to another week of work and prayer. Lots of it.

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